My mind has been all over the place this past year and organizing my thoughts has been quite the ordeal. Here’s my best effort at filling you in. Please read to the end.
Sharing on this space has been a creative outlet for me, but the past several years have felt “off.” When I started blogging I had a toddler and newborn baby at home. Having some webspace to share my thoughts was w-o-n-d-e-r-f–u-l after long days of caring for two tiny humans. But since that time we’ve added another child to our family and gone through some pretty major life changes. Life looks very different than it did eight years ago. My husband is different. My kids are different. I am different, too.
I’ve always wanted this space to be an outpouring of my real life and passions, but I’ve also wanted it to generate some supplemental income and alleviate some financial strain. In recent years I’ve felt the pressure to compete with the zillion other blogs out there in order to see that happen. All the blogging experts say to be successful you have to be unique, write consistently, produce engaging content, make your photos pin-worthy, and share content on social media (among many other tips). It’s been exhausting, really. And I’m feeling rather burnt out by it all.
I feel as if I am a rope and the blog is competing with my real life as a wife and mom. I’ve been pulled this way and that, trying to make both work well, but in the end both suffer because I can’t give my best to either (at least at the stage of life I am in). The past year has forced me to see my limits. My real-world life has required a lot of me and Holistic Homemaking has taken a back seat.
I’ve also been thinking about how I don’t want to add to all the noise on-line. There are so many other bloggers that write about the same topics I do (and they usually do so much more eloquently than I do). I want to share practical, thoughtful, useful information but I don’t want to re-create the wheel. I don’t want to say the things that everyone else is saying.
But most of all, my heart wants to be more fully-engaged with my family and friends and to enjoy day-to-day life without feeling like I *have* to tend to something on-line or else my numbers and stats will fall. I don’t want to spend my spare moments checking off all my blogging boxes. I’ve run out of steam and I’ve fallen out of love with blogging.
A new home, homeschooling for the 5th year (can you believe it??) and personal family matters … that’s where I need to be most right now – fully present in my own, tangible life. My husband needs me. My kids need me. I need to be fully present in my own life.
I still plan on sharing from time-to-time on Facebook, and visually documenting life on Instagram, and maybe offering the occasional tweet but the blog is going to unplug on or near December 5, 2015 when my hosting contract expires.
I would love for you to subscribe to my email newsletters which are sent out on an irregular basis. My newsletter will be changing a little from what you may recognize. Instead of it being tied to the blog and full of links to the site, it will become more personal with encouragement and updates of what I am up to … with some other goodness sprinkled in. (A newsletter is in the works for this month.)
Thank you so much for all your love and support.
In His grip,
here are some people who have inspired me … passing their links along in case you haven’t met them yet
Written on the Heart (Hand Lettering / Calligraphy)